On-ward!

I have been looking into and dreaming about the future.  Sometimes I get so excited!  Other times I get so scared I want to hide.  I've decided to lace up my dusty shoes and run even though I really want to crawl in bed and just stay there.  I read this book we got for a wedding gift.  I believe its called "The Most Important Year in a Woman's Life" and then when you flip the book over there's a whole other book called "The Most Important Year in a Mans Life".  I felt the book really helped me to put things into perspective a little bit.  There have been times I felt so horrible because of some thoughts I had regarding life, marriage, and my future.  I felt so terrible for having thought these things.  The book really helped me understand that I'm not alone.  So many new brides have these exact same thoughts.  That really helped me out of the slump I was in.  I want so badly to be the best wife-so that I can be the best Mom some day.  Often though I'm left feeling "not so great".   I feel like my calling in life is to "leave a legacy".  I want to be a mother that raises and leaves behind a legacy of Gods love, compassion, and POWER for her children!  In order to have those things I feel my marriage needs to be a solid foundation.  An unwavering foundation.  So I'm going after it!   ON-WARD!!!   

"I am FOR you"

On Sunday our Pastor gave a sermon on  5 laws for protecting your marriage.  I really felt like I could do better at a couple of them.  The Law of Honor: Create value, don't seek value.  There are two things here within this first law.  I feel although I'm good at creating value I'm not always great at not seeking it.  I sometimes keep a list in my head of everything I am doing to show honor to David.  I keep records not only of what I do for David but also what he does or does not do for me.  I am seeking value.  It is not my husbands job to make me feel valued though I know he does value me.  Christ is my source for value.  I really feel like I am learning this through married life. 
Another law this marriage has already broken- "Law of Judgment".  The "Law of Judgment" says- "Seek to understand before you seek to be right".  We both love being right and we are both very witty.  We are always trying to "out-smart" the other.  This is one I think we will be working on throughout our marriage.  Life is about decisions and with two very competent but different people (David & I ) sometimes coming into agreement with each other or even compromise is hard to settle into.  I know that God is FOR me, God is FOR David,  I am FOR David and David is FOR me so with all that in mind I know we can have a beautiful marriage!

Honey

So David has had this fixation with Honey lately.  I was just saying to him a few days ago that I'm gonna have to start buying honey in larger quantities because he eats so much.  He has it on bread, fruit, cereal, tea-everything.  It not all that cheep either. 
Yesterday at lunch he called me on his lunch break like he often does and I was telling him what I was gonna make for dinner.  I said I'm making chili and corn bread.  He was SO excited about the corn bread it was ridiculous!  He said "that corn bread is gonna be so good with butter and honey drenched over it".  I just laughed. 
A couple hours later we received a prophetic word (text) from Luke Sanke.   It said "I see David and Noelle driving a yellow car that has honey all over it, it turned into a Bigger yellow car that turned into a big yellow bus, that turned into a giant yellow plane, that turned into a giant yellow cruise ship...full of people.  I don't know if traveling is on your hearts, but I feel like you two will be traveling a lot."
We were blown away by this word for a number of reasons.  One being that David has been in this season of physical HONEY cravings.  Also we have has some lengthy conversations about traveling and both feel passionate about seeing the world and evangelizing.  
I feel like the Lord has me on this wonderful journey with David and this is just the beginnings of an amazing story and adventure.

Comforter and friend

This blog may sound so contrary to my last but this is what marriage is all.... about isn't it?  There are highs and there are lows.  There are days I want to scream and there are days I want to...(well you fill in the blank).  I have found much comfort in the arms of my husband.  Every night I get into bed just knowing he is there besides me makes me cozy.  I feel safe.  Lately this feeling has been expressed even more as I have gotten some sobering news that my grandpa is dying.   When I got the news last week one day at 4:00 pm I went to bed and was out of commission till the next day 10 am.  I don't remember the last time I cried so much.  My husband was so good to me.  He just listened to me and embraced me and I made his shirt quite damp with my tears.  It is so good to have someone there for me in a very intimate and tangible way.  I love him and I know with God and my husband by my side I will get through this very difficult season.

Towel, Toilet Seat, Trash

I'm new to this blogging thing.  I don't have the best grammar so I guess that has held me from my dreams of being a famous writer but no more!  I may never become famous through my writing and I'm okay with that.   I guess the purpose of this blog for me is to vent.  Simple.  Right?  I hope to find comfort in knowing that others may be going through some of the same things I'm going through.  I just recently got married!  I found my prince charming and we had a fairytale wedding.  Its true we really did.  The wedding was complete with Disney Music, Princess Cakes, Glass Slippers, etc.  It was lovely!  After the honeymoon I found out that married life wasn't exactly the blissful thing I thought it was.  I was always told and I figured some of those stories to be true but now I see firsthand what they were all talking about.  Three things that drive me crazy:  He uses the hand towel to wipe his face.  He never puts the toilet seat down after using it.  He leaves his ox poo around (laugh your way to a better marriage-describes the mans garbage that lays around the house as ox poo).   Can anyone out there relate?  Does this get better?